My faith is big on ritual, seeing the divine in little things, and complex interrelated systems. I can't imagine having this faith as a non-autistic person.
My faith says that humans use what is at their disposal (like stories, rituals, rules, societal mores, and education) to make sense of things we cannot understand. That is also how I understand people as an autistic person.
My faith says that the brain uses every piece of information and sensory input it can in order to make sense of the world; we use symbols and metaphors and remember emotional memories because that is how we learn. I think about that all the time as an autistic person.
My faith ultimately is one where I am happy to be an organism in a system; the system or laws of nature themselves is the idea that I worship, and 'worship' means just the sublime beauty of systems for their own sake, and being part of one. It is silly to ask whether that was 'intelligently designed' because intelligence is an idea we devised based on how humans process the world around them, and the cosmic system and laws of physics that govern us are bigger than that and cannot be described in those terms.
My faith is one of necessity. I do not 'believe' 2 + 2 = 4; I just know that 2 + 2 must equal 4. If I was an addition symbol, I would think the entire world was about addition, and I would imagine 'god' was the most powerful addition symbol in the world - a multiplication symbol! I would imagine that 'god' was just the most powerful version of myself, but if the universe only had multiplication, and not any other process, it wouldn't work. If there was a human-like god, things wouldn't work. The system knows better, and works better, than 'intelligence.'
There are people around the world who practice my faith - and every faith, and every ideology - in a self-interested way, and that doesn't work very well for communities, because no system functions when components of the system start to prioritize their own resource accumulation over the broader function. Other systems - ecology, economy, psychology, evolution - are impacted by that, because there is an effect to every cause.
That way of thinking is the 'hypersystemizing mechanism' discussed in the autistic mind. I don't imagine I would even see the point to spiritual practice if I didn't have this brain, but then again, I have no idea what it would be like to have any other brain.
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